OK first off, i am extremely confused at who this mysterious person is that keeps on bitching at me to post something on this fascinating blog entitled "land of hope and dreams". and yes, i have been slacking off lately and just posting videos (not that they aren't entertaining). but in all seriousness, its about time that i shared my opinion. to stick with the present theme, i will talk about graduation and such, and just a couple of things from high school that should be interesting to read about for all those blog stalkers... cough...keegan Patrick... cough... Anna mcdermott (in my dream)... cough... Kendall tarpley (?????. anyways-here goes nothing:
well... for me to get all sentimental and reflective i am not going to lie... i enlisted some of my good friends (Bruce Springsteen, Dave Matthews, john hiatt, bob Dylan, billy Joel) to set the background mood as i write this wonderful essay.
and the play list goes something like this:
1) cry love - john hiatt
2) stay or leave - dave matthews
3) wrecking ball- bruce springsteen
4) newpie twerkin it- bucknastys (aka dmg)
for real now. the whole grauating thing kinda hit me during spring break. and it has slowly trickled down into the mixed emotions that i have now. i was laying in bed... both in Atlanta and in new orleans... thinking that this college thing is for real and that im going to be doing the college thing soon... whether or not im ready for it. i would say that im ready for it though. im ready to have some more freedom from my prison envrinoment which i call my house. im ready to meet some new people, maybe explore the world ( or i guess just knoxville). but im not gonna lie... im going to miss high school. of course, not the classwork or the waking up... that sucks. im going to miss the people, my friends, teammates, and the familiar environment.
soccer stuff- whenever my season and career ends i know it will be tough to swallow. i have been playing since 3... but seriously since elementary school. it has been a huge part of my life. most of my friends are teammates and i love spending time with them-on and off the field. all of my coaches have impacted me and i cant thank them enough for helping to grow into the player and perosn that i am now. i hope to continue playing in college, but i know it will not be the same. and that is what is so tough for me, is to know that i have so much passion still left to play but that it might not able to be used. all i know is that the soccer chapter of my life will be coming to a close soon, which is a sign that im growing up.
friends- its weird to think about the friends i have made in the world. some far, some near, some i know that i will never see again. growing up in north carolina, that is (was) my life and it will always be there. some of those friends i stay in contact with, but its difficult, and i know its not the same that it used to be. some of you, i will never talk to again. ill always have the memories to carry with me, even if you arent around to share them with. but for some of you, its more difficult to think about. you know who you are (i would rather not say names). the way we have drifted apart if further than i could have ever imagined. i dont know how it happened exactly but that is how it is now. and i dont think that there is any way to change it, but who knows what the future has in store from us. ok since i am tired of typing i will save my new friends in brentwood for a post closer to graduation, i definately have not forgotten about you guys.
ok well thats about it for now. but in summary: with graduation comes the closing of a bunch of chapters in my life.
but ps. i like this:
stay fly,
soccerball
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